Recovering From The Chaos…

The past few weeks have been… interesting.

First, I had the long-awaited visit from my mother and my aunt, which went well for the most part. My mother and my aunt are the middle and youngest children, respectively, and they are very different in their opinions. Yet, they are both very talkative and competitive of each other, but neither would admit to this. Both women are in their mid-to-late 60’s , overweight, and they love me dearly. I was glad to see my mother and my aunt, but I  was disappointed when my mother became somewhat jealous of me and my aunt talking, as I enjoyed hearing stories about my uncle and eight cousins that I had not previously heard. My mother would interrupt, add to the conversation in ways that didn’t may sense and would throw zingers at both me and my aunt, which Boyfriend witnessed, rather than telling us how she really felt. There were even moments when my mother channeled my father’s impatience, disagreeableness and negativity, which surprised me. Boyfriend and I tried to plan a few things to do and places to go that would allow us all to spend time together, see some sights and eat good food.  The high points, for me, were their appreciate for Boyfriend and for his patience, good nature and how good he is to me, and learning about my family. The low points were two arguments with my mother because she said I was being negative.  To me, sometimes an apple is just an apple, not the most beautiful, tasty red apple ever! All I did was share my account of an event, so I walked away for a few minutes to collect myself, and the second time, when I actually told her how I felt, and she threw a fit in front of the Texas State Capital because I was being real rather than in the clouds. I love both of my parents but I continue to have trouble with the fact that they take it personally if I happen to agree with the other parent on something about which they disagree. Thank God for my aunt, who was not only understanding but able to somewhat mediate and salvage the day. Overall, it was nice to see my mother and my aunt after not being home to see the family for almost two years, and it felt good to share some of my life in Texas with them. My mother and I have talked since, and I think we now having a better understanding of each other.

Next, Boyfriend starts getting calls from relatives about his mother and some problems caused by his older brother. His mother and brother, as mentioned in a previous post, are both narcissists, and are enemies and best friends depending on the day. Boyfriend limits contact with both of them but did talk to his mother for her birthday (in March), Easter and Mother’s Day. The calls from relatives came somewhere in between, and culminated in Boyfriend’s decision to fly home for a few days to see for himself about his mother’s health and the accusations about his brother’s, um, shenanigans. The stories changed a little once Boyfriend started investigating and he found out the truth, which he already suspected. Let’s just say that, due to my dealings with these people over 12 years, I have much respect and admiration for Boyfriend being courageous enough to ask tough questions and stand up for himself in the presence of a women who does not deserve the title of mother due to her blatant favoritism, manipulation and standard  narcissist behavior, and he still put a plan in place for his mother to be cared for and helped. I don’t think I could have done it, but Boyfriend is the strongest person I know.

This has been a lot of stress on both of us. Then, there is work. Boyfriend started a new job about two weeks ago, and they were kind enough to allow him the time to go home. I had several days off recently while preparing for and during my family visit, and I have felt emotionally drained from everything.  While I am grateful to have a job, but it has its own set of challenges. Working as somewhat of a team has it perks and its drawbacks. Sometimes it is nice to have someone there to help with complicated cases but you don’t get to make decisions on your own, and you have to do what the team agrees with. Also, it is tough when each person has a different relationship with the boss, and there is some favoritism from time to time. I realize that I have not handled my stress the best as of late, but it makes things even tougher when you don’t get the same benefit of the doubt or the same information as others do. I know I must do better and work harder, and accept things as they are.

While it has been hard for Boyfriend to be gone due to concerns about how he would be treated by his family, I am glad to hear that he gained support from a few surprising sources. I hope that, in between his chaos, he got a little time to himself that is hard to get living in a 650 square foot apartment with me and the Cat, and I was glad to get a little time to recover from my chaos by talking on the phone to family and watching a few favorite movies, You’ve Got Mail and keeping the Faith. The best recovery for me, though, will be picking Boyfriend up from the airport tonight.

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Playlist of the Week

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt for 01/31/15: “Tell us how your week went by putting together a playlist of five songs that represent it.”

I had a busy, tiring week, during which, I got much accomplished. After a series of busy work weeks, I saw the clients I needed to see and did most of the paperwork that needed to be done. I am almost caught up! On the home front, I started reading a new book, I wrote down a few future blog ideas, and got some laundry done. Boyfriend is the resident chef, I am the clean-up crew, and he made a wonderful soup on which we feasted for 3 days. All in all it was a good week with a few peaks and valleys. I chose my playlist to represent the range of emotions and situations I experienced, including various genres and songs both current and classic.

  1. Alright by Darius Rucker– This song reminds me that Boyfriend is there through the good, bad and everything else. As long we have each other, it’s alright!
  2. The Lazy Song by Bruno Mars– Being that I am not a morning person, I often don’t want to get up. Mondays are hard because it means the weekend is over. On other days, the reasons vary but, nonetheless, I was champ and got up and went to work.
  3. So What’cha Want by The Beastie BoysThis is a favorite of mine, and I don’t think you can go wrong with The Beastie Boys. On a rough day, though, I do feel like saying, “What’cha want?”
  4.  Here Comes the Sun by The Beatles– One of my favorite Beatles’ song, it came to mind when there were a few nice, sunny days before the weather returned to cold and rain this weekend. I enjoyed a few moments in the sun while walking on my lunch break, and I know our cat enjoyed the sun peaking through the windows.
  5. Did My Time by Korn– This is one of my go-to bands, whether I am anger, exercising or needing music with energy. Korn has a wide variety of songs to fit the mood. Sometimes I do question decisions I have made and I struggle to do my best with the challenges life throws at me. All I can do is try must best, and then try again and again.

This play list is a pretty good example of the range of music I listen to regularly, and I really like each song. I hope you enjoy them!

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