This Is Your Life

In response to the Daily Prompt “This Is Your Life“, If you could read a book containing all that has happened and will ever happen in your life, would you? If you choose to read it, you must read it cover to cover.

This prompt reminds me of one of my favorite movies, “Stranger Than Fiction.” The story is about a man name Harold Crick who begins hearing narration of his life while an author, Karen Eiffel tries to finish writing her book. Harold tracks down the author and is able to read the draft, which is the story of his life. Harold is supposed to die, and the author is know for creatively ending the life of her main characters. Ultimately, Harold accepts that he will die, though, the author comes up with alternate ending which allows Harold to live. I love this movie and appreciate that it was filmed in Chicago, allowing me to see familiar places. I think it is an underrated movie, and I really like that Will Ferrell is both funny and serious in this movie. Check it out!

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I would not want to read a book that would detail my whole life, and the movie “Stranger Than Fiction” is as close to this as I would like to be. You are supposed to live life as it happens. No one, except for God, has the ability to predict and know what you will do, where you will go, who you will meet and when you will die. Even when your life seems to be going on a certain path, it is still uncertain because things can change moment to moment. Life is about the ride and is full of unknowns. As someone who likes to have a general idea of what I will do each day, I know that stuff just happens and that I cannot plan for everything, whether it be the weather, traffic, my to-do list, or natural disasters.

The only thing I know for sure is that I love Boyfriend, our cat and my family, and that they love me. I know that Someone great than each of us created this world, and that I can only try to live the best I can each day.

 

I’m here… Part II

I started my blog in November 2014, and I am proud to say that I am still here. I have been writing about different things that I notice or have affected me personally, covering topics from my family and Boyfriend’s family, hobbies, politics, my hometown Chicago and my new home Central Texas, and life in general.

I have written in various forms for most of my life – poems, journals, stories when I was younger, and news articles for the school paper. I did it because I liked it and it helped to get thoughts and feelings on paper. I wouldn’t say that my poetry was great but I enjoyed writing it, and it helped me process life in my own way. I haven’t written poetry in a long time, maybe 2-3x in the past eight years, which I have tied to working in social services. My jobs have entailed lots of people time, sometimes dealing with lots of stress, and I would gain satisfaction from helping others but also be left drained mentally and emotionally.

I really enjoy blogging- writing blog posts and reading blog posts. I wish I had given this a-go sooner than I did but I am glad I am  here. Kind of reminds me of the saying about Texas, “I wasn’t born in Texas, but I got here as soon as I could,” which also pertains to me. I hope to gain more comfort in sharing my thoughts publicly, though in a most anonymous manner, and I hope to develop skill at building different types of posts. I plan to continue writing about various topics, including family, life, politics, and other topics as they peak my interest.

Again, welcome to blogdaysofchrell!

It’s a great life if you don’t weaken…

Growing up, I remember my Dad saying, “It’s a great life if you don’t weaken.” I looked up the origins of this saying, and found that itwas featured in a cartoon a long time ago, that is has been attributed to John Buchan, a Scottish novelist, unionist and Canadian politician, and that it has been used as song lyrics, first by Maurice Chevalier and later by the Tragically Hip. No matter where my Dad got it from, I can relate to it and the words have stuck with me.

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I work in social services and have in some variety for the past 15 years. I have worked with youth, family, elderly, homeless, mentally ill and drug addicted people. As I mentioned in a previous post post, I like helping people and I am someone who helps other whether I am at work or among friends. This does not mean that my job(s) has been easy, that I have not gone through burnout, and that I don’t have days when I fantasize about winning the lottery and walking awake from the world of social services, and work, forever. I try to have more good days than bad, I do the best I can to do my job, and I try to not bring others’ problems home with me, which is a lot easier than it used to be. I have a set schedule now rather than a few set days and a mostly fluid schedule, which means I am usually done with work at a certain time but my day lacks flexibility. I don’t have to take phone calls once I am off the clock, which fluctuated when I scheduled my own appointments and was trying to get in touch with working parents.

“It’s a great life if you don’t weaken.”

Some days I find it hard to get up and go to work to deal with others’ problems and dysfunctions while I am dealing with stress and dysfunctions in my life and coupled with the reality that life is not getting better or easier for most people, me included.  I struggle with the limited time I have in the evening and on weekends to relax and do things that keep me sane, after I help Boyfriend with daily apartment tasks, such as dishes, cooking, shopping, cleaning, laundry, playing with the cat, and getting enough sleep. Exercise, writing, watching baseball, talking with family/friends and playing tennis are things that I enjoy. The tough thing is that if I take time to write, I am probably not going to exercise, play tennis or do much else, especially during the evening. It’s a juggling act for me, and I know this sounds like nothing for someone who also has kids, but this is enough for me. On good days, I feel like I can do what I need to do, I relish in getting all of my home and work tasks done and I believe that things will, and can, get better.

I doubt that I am the only one who feels this way. Life can be great and yet we all have days when we not only weaken but we want to hide under the covers and not come out. I find strength in the support I get from Boyfriend, who has a bad back and other injuries that ail him but he never complains. I find strength in our one-year old cat who loves us and brings us her toy mice in the night, and in the clients who are truly grateful for my assistance. I find strength in my ability to get up, even when I don’t want to so I can fulfill my responsibilities. “It’s a great life if you don’t weaken,” and I try my best to keep going.

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