Can’t shake the fear…

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Fright Night.” What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?

I am not the person who likes to skydive, rock-climb or bungee-jump. I am also not the person to jump off the high-dive, scuba-dive, or go on roller coasters. I can’t explain why but I just can’t do it.

My few experiences with roller coasters have left me feeling like my heart was going to explode and I was going to die.  I also felt this way when I have tried to slide down a very high waterslide. The anxiety is terrible and I don’t know where it comes from, even with Boyfriend nearby. These feelings have only gotten worse with age. The last time I tried a roller coaster was when I rode The Cyclone at Coney Island. I froze during the short ride with my brother and I completely detached from the experience. My brother said that I made noises he couldn’t describe, and that he felt bad for me while he giggled through the ride.

I’m not sure why, but Boyfriend and I took the train and stood at the top of Pike’s Peak on our first vacation together, and I was ok. I was nervous, but I was able to get past these feelings and enjoy the beautiful view atop the mountain. Boyfriend and I took the ski lift during a summer trip to Jackson, WY a few years ago, which I did after saying my prayers, and I ended up being fine. I took this ride to prove that I could do it. This was a day after I had an anxiety attack which prevented me from riding the Incline Railway down into the Royal Gorge (Colorado), which Boyfriend really wanted to do and was understanding about. I trust him and my Brother and believe when they say I’ll be ok, but I just can let go of my fear. I may be missing out, though I would rather feel safe. Anxiety is not fun! Maybe is it because I didn’t climb trees, learn to swim until high school, and was not really encouraged to take risks so it was not part of my development.

What has helped you get past your fear of something, such as heights or deep water? Please share any suggestions in the comments.

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